We had met in Madrid with the disturbing Internal Affairs police of the Serie Riot gear. But life had a bad surprise in store for Vicky luengo (Palma, 31 years old): the sudden death of her father. She wanted to keep the appointment, which in the end was in Barcelona.
Answer. Life gives these blows.
Question. Death changes us when we see it up close and for real.
R. One of the phrases that is spinning in my head these days is “life is strong.” As life knows more and places you in places jevis. And our structures are not made to take near death.
P. That of “life makes strong” the same also means that, in the midst of so much foresight, schedule and calculation, life bursts in with things that were not foreseen at all …
R. Sometimes you have intuitions of where you should go and what decisions you should make, but you don’t just do it, you get lost. And suddenly something comes up that … my father’s death is as if a giant osteopath had come to see me and had made me the strongest bone in my life crrrrack! And then you say to yourself: this is what just happened to me and everything around doesn’t matter.
P. Life breaks out with unforeseen things, but there are people who seem immune to that, people who seem not to live life, but rather to watch it parade.
R. I call those the extras of life, people who instead of having a character that speaks and has a dramatic action, dedicates themselves only to filling in the plane.
P. Another image: you go on a train and watch life go by through the window. Instead of doing, you see things happen.
R. Totally. We all have times like this. You are in an inertia that takes you and …
P. We are inertia, basically and unfortunately, right?
R. Sometimes I stop and say to myself: “But you are not deciding this!” Or you are making decisions out of fear and not out of criteria. There are things that respond to patterns. You think you are choosing things that you are not really choosing. So you have to stop and ask yourself “what do I want to do?” And “how do I want to relate?” For me, for example, love moves everything; family relationships, friendships, couples, the professional … You have to ask yourself how you want to live because, suddenly, you don’t live anymore and …
P. This phrase is from the book of J. Á. Gonzalez Sainz The little life: “Too many days is all too much from too early.”
R. I love it, I just love that phrase, it’s too much, it’s brutal!
P. At worst it is applicable to the world in which Vicky Luengo is now …
R. You are right. Too. I have been a month and a half which is too much.
P. Have you had time to want to send everything to hell, what would Fernán Gómez say?
R. No, that has not happened to me. It is because I have been doing this for so many years – since I was 15 years old – all the uncertainties and all the fears and all the negative parts of this job I already knew, and nothing surprises me anymore. Not knowing if I’m going to work next month, lack of self-esteem, impostor syndrome, thinking that they will never call me again …
P. What tolls are paid in the acting profession, what is left?
R. I’ve always thought that the people who end up with nothing are the ones who never leave anything. You have to leave things to have things. You can’t take everything and have everything.
P. Well, some try very hard.
R. Very much! But you can’t have everything all the time. And sometimes it’s hard for me, it’s hard for me to say no to things, to projects, to people. But I realize that those no’s then generate many yes’s regarding my inner peace.
P. Are series cinema, as some say?
P. They are television.
R. Of course.
P. Not so clear, there are people who argue that good series are cinema.
R. No, so what they are saying is that good series are like movies. What happens is that there is terrible cinema.
P. And horrible series.
R. There is everything. But do you call bad cinema television?
R. So then! Each one chooses the format that best serves them to tell what they want and how they want.
P. And then there’s the theater, where it started. What does it give you?
R. Above all a feeling of troupe, something that has to do with understanding that a story is not told by the actor alone. And it connects me with a here and a now, which is not easy to find in a life so full of stimuli like this. The theater has magic, because what happens that day between the spectator and me is only going to happen like this that time.
P. Isn’t there that feeling of a troupe in the cinema?
R. Yes, but the theater has taught me. And it also gives me a lot of adrenaline.
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