Earlier this year, the Tragic death of young American model Cheslie Krystwho had been crowned Miss USA 2019, shocked and caused a great impact among its thousands of followers and in the world of beauty pageants. The also lawyer was dealing with some mental health problems and at a time when she couldn’t bear to be plunged into depression and sadness anymore, He took his own life by jumping from a window in his apartment. located in an area of Manhattan, New York, United States.
His mother, Mrs. april simpkinswas on one of the recent broadcasts of actress Jada Pinkett Smith’s (wife of actor Will Smith) “Red Table Talk” show, where revealed the heartbreaking message that his daughter Cheslie Kryst sent him before committing suicide.
the young beauty queensent said farewell message at a time when he knew that his mother would be busy in one of his sports classes, so he could not prevent what he had already decided.
The message begins this way, “first, the moment you receive this, I will no longer be alive. And it makes me even sadder that I have to write this, because I know I will hurt you the most.”
April Simpkins, who years ago was crowned Miss North Carolina, mentioned having read her daughter’s farewell letter, an hour after she died. “I love you mom, you are my best friend and the person I have lived for for years.”
I wish I could be with you, but I cannot carry the weight of permanent sadness, despair, and loneliness with me, not one more moment.
Cheslie Kryst said she didn’t tell her mom about these feelings because she didn’t want to worry her, and because she hoped they would change over time, “but I know they will never change, they haunt me with every single thing I achieve, every success, every family gathering, dinner with friends.”
“I cry almost every day, like I’m grieving, I’ve wanted to die for years, and I know you wish you had known and helped me, but I didn’t want to share this burden with anyone. Regardless, thank you very much for being there for me.” me in some of my loneliest moments, without having to tell you that I needed you.
At the end of his sad message, Miss USA 2019 says goodbye to her mother, expressing how much she loved her. “You answered all my calls and you have been there when I have needed you. You listen to me, you care about me when I tell you what is going on in my life and I have always felt that you loved me. I love you more than anyone I’ve ever known. You haven’t done anything wrong, you’ve done everything right.”
April Simpkins told Jada Pinkett Smith that while she’s trying to come to terms with her grief over her daughter’s death, she doesn’t know if she’ll ever get over it. Also, she shared that Cheslie had high-functioning depression and that she began showing signs of this illness in her 20s.but he didn’t know how serious it was, so he thought “maybe it’s just stress”.
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Her daughter had already tried to take her own life before, “after that first attempt, she and I became very close, I wanted her to feel comfortable calling me.”
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